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Husband Wants to Return Home, Step-brothers Compete

Sep 28, 1998

My wife and I recently separated for about a week. I left because she informed me that she was intending to leave. She insists that we only married as expecting parents and rebounding from other relationships.

I don't feel this way. Until now I have never told my wife how much I truly loved her. My arrogance told me, that she would always be here and I didn't care one way or the other. Last week (HELL WEEK) I was extremely unstable. I begged and pleaded with my wife that I wanted to come back and reconcile our marriage.

She has finally conceded to allowing my presence in our home, however she remains cold and verbally doubtful of our marriage lasting. I am trying my best to express my undying love for her, and it only appears to be bouncing off of her. She halfheartedly agrees to try, but she shows no signs of desire to do so. I'm afraid that she wants to end our relationship and destroy our family of two children. Last week I felt empty and suicidal.

I want this to work, but even though I'm back I can not shake the fear, persistence, and emptiness. I am normally very self reliant and stable but the anxiety of not being able to reach my wife is on my mind constantly. Should I have forced my self to stay away and painfully try to move on?



I'm a firm believer in never giving up on a marriage relationship unless there is severe physical abuse or some other type of criminal behavior going on, or other extreme problems.

Since you said that you had never told your wife how much you loved her, she undoubtedly must be very hurt. That kind of pain takes time to heal, but most importantly, it requires a real change in you -- one that she can believe in. She also has to see and feel your love for her.

I'd recommend that you place yourself in the most humble position you can to her. This may sound new to Westerners, but in the orient they have a tradition of bowing all the way to the ground, kneeling and placing their forehead upon their hands. In Korea they call it the 'kyung bae'.

It is a bow of complete respect, love and humility. Korean children often bow that way to their parents or grandparents. Many husbands and wives bow that way to each other, on a weekly basis. It fosters respect, admiration, humility and love.

I once offended my wife, and resolved her feelings by kyung bae'ing 21 times in front of her. The first 7 or 8 times, she got even angrier, because she didn't think I was sincere. After about 15 times, we both started to cry, and at the end she felt cleansed of her anger toward me.

Your wife has painful feelings or 'baggage' toward you. Repentance toward her is the first step; the next is to demonstrate that you are acting differently.

Unless she has already remarried, I would expend all the effort you can to restore the love she once felt for you; both for your sake, her sake, and the sake of your children. Don't give up -- instead save the love of your family at all costs. What else is more important than that?


My son and my stepson are both 5 years old. Derek only visits every other weekend.

They are in competition with each other from what color their popsicles are, to tonight's bowling game. They are driving me crazy!



Competition like that seems to go with the territory. It's not just because they're step-brothers. The big job for us as parents is to teach our children on a daily basis how to express love to each other, and how to develop a real feeling of affection for each other. Since they're only five, though, you do have a long way to go.

Peter Falkenberg Brown is passionate about writing, publishing, public speaking and film. He hopes that someday he can live up to his favorite motto: “Expressing God’s kind and compassionate love in all directions, every second of every day, creates an infinitely expanding sphere of heart.”

~ Deus est auctor amoris et decoris. ~

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